FOOLISH

I was a fool falling in love with you,

And now I blame myself for always feeling blue,

Thought I had a friend with whom I can’t pretend,

So I gave you my heart and you gave me gloom.

Maybe I was desperate to find a friend in you,

Hoping for something beautiful between us to bloom,

With you my heart and soul could rest,

Now I see you were my personal test.

I was stupid to think that you could truly see me,

Hoping that my respect and devotion would draw you nigh,

I feel used, abused and misused,

You never wanted more than my body.

It’s best for us to part ways,

The strings that connected us are now frayed,

Am emotionally strained and in dismay,

What we were has now decayed.

FROZEN

Maybe am frozen,

Chilling in the mist of memories,

Still wishing and hoping for old times,

Praying for the you I once knew.

Am freezing feelings that once gave me warmth,

Your essence in my life has crystallized,

My heart has grown cold without your hold,

It’s a hailstorm of emotions each time I cry.

The new you to me is an ice cube of pain,

It’s clear and I can see you don’t care about the strain,

You chose to be blind and paid me no mind,

You pierced my heart with chills of disappointment.

There’s nothing left in my heart for you,

Just icy pangs and a prayer or two,

Maybe one day when my eyes dry,

You’ll realize my heart’s frozen in dry ice.

I Killed Him!!! Pt1

"You killed him!" that's what she said,
Her voice bitter and marinated in pain, 
Eyes Blazing with hateful rage,
"you killed him!" that's what she said.


"You Killed Him!" that's what she said,
Fervently shaking in anger and pain,
Her finger pointed penetrating my soul,
There was no one else she could blame,
Throwing me deeper in the throes of my pain,
"You Killed Him!" that's what she said,

"You killed Him!" that's what she said,
I hear her accuse me each waking day,
Her words are deeply drilled in my brain,
Her eyes still hateful in her glare,
I've loved and hated and loved her again,
She cracked a vein and my love is strained,
"You killed him!" that's what she said,
Those memories are constantly on replay.

How could she not see me drowning in pain?
Hard moon madness was knocking at my gate,
My soul was crushed, my heart was bleeding,
My faith lost, No God to believe in,
Yet she bestowed upon me the blame,
"You killed Him!" that's what she said.


How much more could my aching heart take?
Bleeding and simultaneously beating,
Too weak to pray while dealing with feelings,
When I needed her the most I was met with disdain,
"You Killed Him!" that's what she said,
"I wished You died instead!" I said and left.

Operator… please connect!!!

Hello Operator,

Please connect your girl to Karma,

My love life’s in trouble,

The Bitch’s responsible,

We had a deal,

She broke the terms,

I just wanna Collect,

Operator please connect!

Hey Karma!

Thank you for the Drama,

Thought we was hommies,

I even used to call you Momma,

We had a good thing going,

Why the Bitch-Boss Holla?

He’s a sexy Piece of chocolate,

Proper-bone big boss stallion,

You waited for me to get addicted,

Then went ahead to cause me trauma.

6 good years,

I’ve slept soundly for 6 good years,

Now I’m having flashback,

I brought a good man to tears,

Why are you reviving my fears?

This de ja vu has me in tears,

Someone pulled a red light-green light on me,

And now my body aches for his touch,

I want to quench my soul’s thirst,

But I can’t face my fears,

Because you pulled up my file,

Highlighted what I did 6 hood years ago,

Karma!

Are you still on the line?

Jackie Edwards Inspired: Carry On Henry

I've been warned about you,

Jackie Edwards sang a song,

Fooling girls with your seduction,

Temptation to the soul,

Giving rise to nasty thoughts,

Henry!

Carry On!!

Like a dog following its master,

Like a shadow with every step,

Your Ego never leaves you,

In it you are meticulously dressed,

Besides, what’s a bad boy without his disguise?

Or that lean when you walk?

Sinfully enticing,

You have many curious,

Henry!

Carry On!!

Words!

Master manipulator of words,

Curving them with your filthy tongue,

A creature that’s a freak on its own,

Attracted to things that get wet,

Yearning to drown in her wetness,

Painting sinfully tasty images in her mind,

Making offers she can’t resist,

Besides, you’re both thirsty and want to drink,

Henry!

Carry On!!

“Loose My Breath”

He likes it when I freestyle,

Each time I moan for him,

My “Oohs and Aahs,”

My heavy breathing,

My soft whispers,

Dirty talk,

All music to his ears.

I’m speaking to his soul,

Each time I ask for more,

He goes deeper,

Loving tastes sweeter,

He’s on a mission,

To make me loose my breath.

He holds me close at time out,

I can feel another round coming through,

When his fingers roam on my skin,

And softly nibbles,

I feel the heat,

Steamy kisses have been showered on my skin,

My temperature rises,

I feel Mr.9 rising,

He sensed my fever,

He’s the doctor and the medicine,

“I’m a big girl” I say,

“I can handle your needle!”

Talking time done,

It’s time for bodies to converse,

We move in a sinful rhythm,

More moaning and groaning heard,

The neighbors need to know he’s a beast,

Black Stallion in the sheets,

Killing me softly with his loving,

He makes me loose my breath.

Preacher Hustle

Pacing up and down won’t get you somewhere,

All of God’s children take their problems to the same place,

But you want to be a fool,

Why do you want to be the stray?

Why are you acting like you don’t know the Savior?

Don’t you recognize the fire within me?

You better act like you know the “Lord’s Chosen”

Plant a seed and I’ll plead with the Lord for your righteousness.

These are the times of the end,

You should be scared,

For the world today has gone rotten,

Would you like to be destroyed by it?

Or would you prefer watching how others get destroyed with it?

On judgment day from your big screen,

In your mansion rent free,

Located in the leafy suburbs on golden streets,

How about you pay a small fee,

I’ll confirm if your name is on St. Paul’s list.

Whatsoever you do to the least of your brothers,

That you do unto me,

Each and every one around you is a brother,

Even your preacher man,

A good job,

A good spouse,

You’re in good health,

I say some good things about you when I pray,

Surely the Lord would be pleased,

If you tipped your “holy” brother,

When the offertory basket comes round next Sunday.

Highgrade Fantasies: Head Rush

Temporary,

One minute man,

Who knew a No strings attached affair,

Could end without a round two?

You left the heat on,

I’m thirsty for you,

But you’re just a head rush,

Don’t play games.

Playing games, you’re playing games,

Who doesn’t like to play?

The tiresome hunt for attention,

The beautiful art of flirtation,

Divine Seduction,

The sinful rhythm of bodies,

The desire for more at Breakfast,

The addiction…

Then you cut me off my supply.

Playing games, wicked games,

You want me on my toes,

So unfair in this affair,

You’re always in control,

Tingly sensations,

Freaky vibrations,

Only for a while,

You got me hooked,

I’m craving a head rush right now.

The Devil is a Liar!!!

Her body looks like sin,

Balanced on those 6 inch heels,

How she handles her body when she walks,

Remains a mystery,

Everywhere she passes,

Men steal glances more than twice,

But she’s focused in her walk,

Heading my direction,

Stopping at my location,

The Devil is a Liar!

Blue polka dot sundress,

I love how the dress and her waist caress,

She’s dressed to impress,

She’s hiding the sun beneath her dress,

She ain’t shy to let me see her thighs and chest,

With her eyes she’s begging me to say yes!

Yuanifanyia mapozi,

Yuanifanya nimlilie mwokozi,

The Devil is a liar!

Panties and Bra?

She has no panties or bra on,

In them she feels over-dressed,

She’s peeled off her dress,

Sexy’s already wet!

She’s all over me,

Moaning and groaning,

Cooing visions of our morning glory,

She’s wants to get me horny,

She says, “You don’t need to worry!”

The Devil is a Liar!

Young and Stupid 2

Beautiful name,

Beautiful voice,

Beautiful face with a beautiful smile,

Beautiful waist,

Beautiful thighs,

Sometimes I wonder if I could have a minute,

Of Beautiful’s time.

Everywhere she goes heads turn,

Chicks get jealous,

When cocks rise in her honor,

Sexy and she knows it,

There’s a way she’ll always show it,

Beautiful wants to play games without a proper rehearsal.

Carry your own gun to a gun fight,

Something she’d know about if there were rules for the game,

Now she’s hurt and broken,

It hurts to see beautiful cry,

She can’t stop wondering,

Why no chemist sells bulletproof condoms for the heart.

Can a leopard change its spots?

Can the sun become a ball of ice?

Beautiful’s wasting her time,

Trying to change a player into a good man,

He’s already on to the next one darling,

Collecting trophies is his hobby,

Someone please tell Beautiful,

That beauty too has an expiry date.

Tell Me your Dreams

BY: Sophiesticated Adhiambo (My Big Sis)

Tell me your dreams

Tell them to me again

Tell me of the streams

And the water that drops and we call it rain

Tell me of the mountains

That you supposedly climb and make fountains, 

Of joy as you enjoy all there is to life

Tell me your dreams

Whisper them to me again

Tell me of the sorrows

And of the pain of never ending tomorrow

Tell me of the rivers of joy

That you apparently cross everyday

And tell me of the happiness that you and I so deserve

Tell me your dreams

Sing them to me once more

Sing of the wonderful views of life

Sing of how you pretend all is well

But deep inside you know the fate, our fate

Our destination, not ambition but our journeys end...Death.

Running

Midnight buzz,

Temporary addiction,

Lover in disguise,

I’ve seen your soul and you’ve seen mine,

That’s why I’m running,

Why are you running?

I spoke my mind,

You put up your poker face,

Teach me how to maintain mine,

Each time I excuse your hands,

I’m addicted to your loving,

Remember me saying I could be problematic,

When sessions with you don’t come automatic?

So I’m running,

Should I run faster?

Dirty messages,

Sending them to you used to be a hobby,

I used to call you Daddy,

Didn’t mind being a fool,

Now youz just a “used to,”

I wanna list you as reference,

I need a “Mr. used to” to say something ‘bout the things I’m used to,

When I submit my resume where I’m running to,

You have me running,

How far have you run away?

The phone rings,

“Mr. Used to” be on the line,

My heart beats faster,

Knees get weak,

The phone melts in my hand when I hear him speak,

“Are you free tonight? Can you come over?” he asks,

With a mind of its own my lips whisper a faint “yes!”

They long to taste his skin again,

And drink from his lips,

He’s got me running back to him,

If I was the one in need would he run back?

Just Sitting Here Thinking…

Just sitting here thinking,
What could happen between you and I,
I can read your IOIs,
I’m sending some back,
We’re undressing each other in a crowded room,
I can taste your skin with my eyes,
Leaving hickies on your neck,
Getting wet on your sinful looks,
Floetry’s in my ear… it’s getting late,
I look away,
You’re just a “Used to!” 

Just sitting here thinking,
You must feel good about yourself,
You made me look!Painted a picture you knew I’d like,
Sending chills down my spine,
Wanting to warm me up with Mr. Nine,
I can feel your eyes on my thighs,
Please look away,
Mr. Used to!

Just sitting here thinking,
As I kiss a spliff in your honor,
What if I let more than just his eyes touch?
Can he still make me quiver?
Give me a fever,
Make my body shiver,
When I let his beast slither,
Deep into my Cheetah,
Will I still enjoy this Mr?
I laugh coz I shouldn’t be thinking of a trickster,
Seductive teaser,
But never a pleaser.

Damn!!!

You don’t pick up my calls,

You don’t reply my texts,

I admit I was wrong,

And I wanna work this out,

But all I get is silent Treatment,

Don’t you think you’re being juvenile?

I’ll understand if you asked for space,

Besides I’ve been an Ass,

And sometimes I think you deserve better,

So please let’s talk,

Then you can put me off if you wanna,

Just don’t be silent.

I’m just human, imperfect in every sense,

But that’s no excuse for the things I did to you,

I should have known better,

I should have made it easy for you to be in my life,

I’m here trynna make it work,

At least let me know that you got my voicemail.

I keep staring at our pictures,

I wanna make you smile again,

I re-read your DMs and Inboxes,

Your emails and texts,

Don’t you think I’ve learnt my lesson?

I’m at your door, let me in,

I just wanna talk.

I can’t believe what I’m hearing,

They say that you already replaced me,

Can’t a Nigga get a second chance?

Or was this planned before I messed up?

Ain’t it funny?

Who owes who a conversation?

How you gon’ be heartless?

Leaving me confused, do I really deserve that?

How you gon’ do me like that?

If my momma knew yo type she’d warn me about you,

Damn!

I was a Fool for you, and you liked it,

Playin’ innocent yet youz Dr.Evil,

I’m a Fool coz of you, and you don’t care,

How could I not see this coming?

Damn!!

Strangers

Introductions were in order,

Conversations were flirtatious,

A spark flamed up,

I couldn’t stop thinking of you,

Questions were answered,

Honesty displayed for the first time,

It was a dangerous thing to trust you,

But part of me wanted to be seen,

You said the right things,

You said them at the right time in the right way,

“I can do this” I told myself,

So I broke a vow to do No Strings Attached,

It started with a kiss and a tease,

You had courtesy, you said please,

You put my mind and body at Ease,

For your lovin’ I’d get down on my Knees,

The walls knew our secret,

The sheets burned in our passion,

The Neighbors got familiar when they saw me,

I couldn’t stop coming for more,

Don’t kiss, don’t tell,

The only rule in our game,

I kept to the rule you made,

Then why couldn’t I have you when I wanted you?

I guess I got a bit selfish,

It happens when you find something you like,

Good thing I don’t cling to things,

Besides there were bitches waiting in line,

I didn’t tell anybody,

No one knew that skins rubbed,

I was on my best behavior,

Treated you like a stranger on these streets,

Now part of me says STOP!

I just realized that I drowned in temptation,

I wanna stop playing under covers,

I wanna treat you like a stranger for real.

No Strings Attached

Eyes locked in deep gaze,
Lips engaged in passionate Murmurs,
Your fingers burn on my skin,
My knees melt like butter,
I wanna feel like this each night,
I want some foreplay,
I want some spice,
I want a man treating my body right,
But i don't wanna keep you,
Can we do No Strings Attached?

I like how i feel when you peel off my dress,
And with your eyes you gently caress,
You nibble my ear then whisper my name,
Your voice filled with desire,
Sets me on fire,
How would i Not want to spread em legs?
You're good for my body,
Healthy for my soul,
But God Knows I don't wanna keep you.

We're busy Acting out our fantasies,
Phones off,
Bodies close,
Ass smacking,
Pussy Pounding,
I wonder who taught you how to make a woman wet,
Hickies on my neck,
On my back and on my chest,
But you ain't my man.

Now you can't stop calling,
For heaven's sake please stop texting,
I no longer want us sexting,
Could we please have a break?
It's never easy dealing with feelings,
It was never my intention to get you hooked,
I guess it's true what they say,
When the sex is good strings get attached,
I've been through this before,
I should have stopped when you started being protective.

It's evident that i left you hurt,
Is that why you treat me like dirt?
You know better than to run your mouth,
Stop talking about me,
I've heard the things you said,
You labeled me easy lay,
But when we analyze our arrangement,
It's pellucid clear that I'm the one who picked you up.

Keep on whining,
Go ahead and cry,
But you knew from the Start,
You were just entertainment,
No strings attached is a rule i live by,
For you i won't change,
Reminisce my kisses,
Play with yourself if you like,
Keep in mind that I'm never coming back,
I'm Busy getting Hickies on my thighs.

Highgrade Confessions: Badder Boy

Bad Man in the Streets,
This man's a Batman in my sheets,
Batman in my Dreams,
Yet unhealthy for me,
He's a dangerous Man,
A man with a gun is a dangerous man.

Dial up the Police,
I should have dialed up the police,
Instead i stay Put,
The man has a hold on me,
I'm addicted to this man,
Is it because I love playing with his biggest gun?

Every time we Kiss,
He fills me with desire,
And with his Touch,
He sets my body on fire,
He spreads me like a map,
And lets his fingers dance on my skin,
When he finds my spot,
Like an explorer he handles me,
It is a fact He bad,
But in bed this man be Badder!

Bad Man in the Streets,
Badder Boy in the Sheets,
It would be bad for me to miss,
His divine Blessings in the sheets,
He's my Kryptonite,
I like how he makes me weak,
If this is a crime,
Someone please Crucify me!

Highgrade Fantasies: The Description

Lips locking,
Fever rising,
Bodies locked in deep embrace,
Clothes off,
Lights Out,
So that bodies can hold a deep conversation.

Electrified,
Feeling nice,
How could they say sexin' you ain't right?
Deep groaning,
Soft Moans
There's so much fire between the sheets.

Full blown Ecstasy,
But we ain't poppin' pills,
I feel alive when we are busy lovin',
Scuba diver,
Lickin' sweets,
He comes up for air wetter than when he dived.

Ear nibbling,
Seductive whispers,
Hold me tighter in your caress,
Don't stop teasing,
Tell me how you need me,
Anything you ask for I'll say yes!

I'm Yours

Your lips,
Your eyes, Your sexy smile,
They have something in common,
They leave me breathless...

Your Kiss,
Your touch, Your tenderness,
They knock me off my feet,
You make me weak...

Your loving,
Your attention, Your time,
The most priceless you give to me,
I'm honored...

In my heart,
My thoughts and My Soul,
Is where you'll always be,
I'm yours...

Come Back

I toss and turn,
It gets cold sometimes,
I lay my head down,
But I can't sleep at night,
I think it's amazing,
How you still got me feeling crazy,
Even when you're not in my arms,
You're the only thing on my mind,
Please hurry up darling,
Come Back to me.

Memories they taunt me,
Each time I close my eyes,
They keep me company,
So do the Pictures of you and I,
I think it's amazing,
How you electrify my body,
Each time I Reminisce your touch,
I need your loving tonight,
Please hurry up and come back to my loving arms.

Where are you darling?
Am I on your mind?
I hope you have something planned out,
You need to make things right,
I'm sure it'll be amazing,
Coz you know how to take care of your Lady,
I am waiting patiently for you daily,
Even though it gets lonely sometimes,
Hurry up and come back to me.